LET ME THINK


 








There i find a problem..
I need to find out the colour of Ego..
This special ego stands against my earthen elements.
Only against my origin.....
 
A poster i received says someone trusted me more and i don't deserved that trust..
Let me think.. what is it all about...
Hidden Masks of Poetry Site
Wars, Hound, Chase.... i think i don't need to repeat..
Who has stolen my memos, little write ups..
I got bored of fighting with masks and walked back from there.
Why did that ego chase me again even after i walked back...
 

Second beyond all the trust treaties  my emails were hacked and all those little heartbeats i scribbled for my own little happiness were stolen along with my personal albums.. 
Again who broke the trust?? who?? let me ask..

Third 
after hound and threats....sweeteners and betrayals.. 

Did you deserve trust?? Have you ever tried to understand what we wanted to tell.. 
No...Never.. You only struggled to make my earth fall..fall flat that you can take in your hand and toss....  fun... you thought...
We sisters fought... yes..
we fought when you exceeded all your limits and you revenged for that too with all your mights and shows..

I don't think i need to explain any further...Even i am bored off fighting with mean elements and i know we will walk back like how we did in that poetry site. We know there no point in fighting with the people who don't even understand what we speak for. Otherwise too we cannot talk sense with the ones who install sting lens on other human beings and celebrate life.. 
  
We were always in the receiving end of your brutal conspiracies..
We only fought against  a small minded group who struggled day and night to make it look otherwise.....May be they are the ones who benefitted in the give and take packages...    

At the end who has got time to think of any details. It is too waste of a life to write  again and again on the same subject.  Trust oh who broke it.. someone wants to hit on my head and say that i should accept.. should i?? there around me a million painted cubicles, painted ads, many faces, face masks..
i stand alone.. 
someone repeats the same, same, same past..
someone wants to break my heartbeats and say i need to accept..
trust... stories.. paints... bias, prejudice....
should i accept.....  
My conscience reluctant.....  
I feel i should stand by my conscience.... 

 


 



 

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I WISH I COULD IGNORE MEAN SOULS...















I cannot hold it any more...
I don't want people meddling with my life. He is answerable. He cannot just go putting others on scrutiny lenses. He wants to laugh about others domestic violence. His contribution of mental torture was almost equal or more..  He needs to be treated for mental disorder that his ego has outgrown him..

He wants chief editors to paint red for his swindler and laugh at the domestic violence of others. How mean this human?? can i call him  a human.. How can one be so mean..

For years he caused disturbance and at the end he needs to laugh at others life..  I thought he has changed... yes he has changed to be more mean....

Yes, there no point in fighting with polished criminals. Can any human who cause so much of disturbance to the other human being and claim he is love guru.. Ridiculous, he is mean, his love is mean. He changes his love for his own selfish requirements. Love for him is a show. He uses even the word love to get mileage..One cannot be so mean.. Yes there is domestic violence that is what is the sum total of mental torture you caused...

The one who promotes such meanness i need to tell you, pour paints on your own siblings, instal sting on your own daughters and when they suffer make captions for their sufferings and sip beer, celebrate.. 

Meanness is a disease like cancer. Incurable.. That spreads and kills humans.  Celebrate on others miserly and give speeches about love and pay money to caption writers to sledge.. It is time for me to think that you were not a human but a demon affected soul.. 

At least for once you think if someone installed a sting lens on your sister how you would have reacted.. Oh it is your past time hobby.. to hound other souls and destroy them. You want to create ads on others' domestic violence.. How much torture have you caused? Have you thought of that anytime... No.... you are the epitome of selfishness...
 
If anybody is dead or finished you celebrate.. You world tour to speak about Tagore and many such great personalities of this world covering your meanness on a polished coat of pretense because you are not a human.. but a demon conquered soul.. Only such people can celebrate on others miseries, only such demons can celebrate on others domestic violence.

Never in my life i thought i encounter with such meanness.. Paint Red all around you and walk around India.. I will cry....  for you to laugh.....I know you will get happiness in only such package deals....

Yes, i will try to forgive even when people distribute their meanness around me as their life time achievement....

I need my peace.. that does not mean that i sit quiet on paid up meanness.. .

Oh.. Might/Money is right for you.... 
I wish i could ignore your pity caption writers who recreate your meanness.. I know if i spend my whole day i can generate much better creation than your painted ghosts....

I think it is better to ignore meanness like yours as it cause no damage to you but only cause damages to other human beings. Selfish people will always be happy as they know how to safeguard their selfishness.... It is true at times demons invade and ransack the happiness of other human beings.. 

I wish i could ignore mean souls for life..